I have always been a person who is amazed by death. When someone dies, I like to read the obituaries because cause of death has always been something that interests me. I guess this would explain why I got a degree in criminal justice and enjoy talking about statistics, especially about violence and death. 

When a person dies, I want to know how they died. I find it interesting that each person has their own narrative. They have their own story. This is the end of their story, unless you include their legacy as their epilogue. 

Today, I found out an old professor of mine had died. I really loved biological science courses in my undergraduate years. This professor was one of the faculty for BSC. Our class sizes were large so I never spent time with him one-on-one, but in the class, I knew he loved what he did because of how he talked about it. He had a wife and children. He was taken tragically. I spent about three hours just researching how he lived and how he died. I cried for a person…


This has been the theme of the last few days: self-worth. Self-worth is the sense of one's own value or worth as a person, otherwise known as self-esteem or self-respect. Each person values themselves differently, but (especially nowadays) it seems that more people seem to have low self-worth.

I've always had low self-worth. As a child, I dealt with bullying and abuse. As a teen, I dealt with crappy boyfriends and abuse. As an adult, I deal with a whole new set of troubles. During my teens, the internet became increasingly popular. The days of hanging out in person or having phone conversations for hours seemed to disappear slowly and then all at once.

An important part of conversations is the non-verbal cues or gestures from another person. Without that, it almost feels like any conversation is open to interpretation when it comes to tone and intent. The lack of face-to-face communication is starting to destroy this and I believe it caused a new general uncertainty when it co…

Update on Goals and Resolutions (11/2017)

Goals and Resolutions for 2017 Marathon/RunI would like to either run in a marathon or a fun-run type activity. I am not good at running or walking for that matter, so that is one thing I'd like to do in 2017.Niagara FallsThe farthest north I have ever been is Connecticut. I would love to travel to Niagara Falls and just feel the mist on my face. Plus, I would love to drive on over to Canada. Maybe I'll do that one next year.Go to the beachAs a person who lived near the beach for 14 years of their life, I never liked the beach. I went to one in 2015 (the Bahamas) and fell in love with it. I want to go this year with Jude since he has never seen a beach (except in pictures). Toes in Lake ErieI do not know how sanitary or legal it would be. I want to stick my toes in Lake Erie. A trip to Washington, D.CI have not been in a while. I mainly want to sight-see. Monuments and museums all day every day.CruiseNot particular on where or how long. I just want to go on another …

October 2017 Television Renewals & Cancellations

Here we are again. About a month or two into the Fall premiere schedule, let's cross some fingers that we don't lose some lovely shows. Unfortunately, television networks care about rating and making money. I still wish all cancelled television shows had at least like an hour finale or a talk show-style episode with the writers to talk about what would have happened. I need closure! Anyways, we are now in November. 2017 is almost over! Let's see what we gained and lost in October.


Major Crimes (TNT) will end with the upcoming 6th season. The series finale airs January 16, 2018Odd Mom Out (Bravo)Survivor's Remorse (STARZ)Being Mary Jane (BET)The Night Shift (NBC)Fashion Police (E!)Chelsea (Netflix)Zoo (CBS) Playing House (USA)House of Cards (Netflix) will end after next year's 6th season. [Update 10/31: Production has been halted. It is unclear if the 6th season will air.]Renewals

The Bold Type (Freeform) - Season 2 and 3Raven's Home (Disney) - Season…


Sexual assault is a sexual act in which a person is coerced or physically forced to engage against their will, or non-consensual sexual touching of a person. Sexual assault is a form of sexual violence, and it includes rape (such as forced vaginal, anal or oral penetration or drug facilitated sexual assault), groping, child sexual abuse, or the torture of the person in a sexual manner.

The U.S. Department of Justice's National Crime Victimization Survey states that on average there are 237,868 victims (age 12 or older) of sexual assault and rape each year. Girls ages 16–19 are 4 times more likely than the general population to be victims of rape, attempted rape, or sexual assault. 88.7% of rape victims are women, the other 11.3% being men.

People who are sexually assault are:

3 times more likely to suffer from depression6 times more likely to suffer from post-traumatic stress disorder13 times more likely to abuse alcohol26 times more likely to abuse drugs4 times more likely to cont…

Mental Health Awareness

Two days ago, it was World Mental Health Day. World Mental Health Day is observed on 10 October every year, with the overall objective of raising awareness of mental health issues around the world and mobilizing efforts in support of mental health. Mental health is just as important as physical health. There are many people in the world affected by mental health issues.

Globally, more than 300 million people suffer from depression, and 260 million suffer from anxiety disorders—many of whom live with both conditions. Personally, I am affected by both conditions. They are debilitating at times. Some people are more functional than others. Some people can put on a fake smile and pretend their problems are non-existent.

Here’s a deeper look at how mental health issues affect Americans:

1 in 5 (or 43.8 million) adults experience mental illness in a given year.1 in 25 (or 10 million) adults experience a serious mental illness.1 in 100 (or 2.4 million) live with schizophrenia.2.6% (or 6.1 mil…

Life Snippet: Police Wife

This was the news article that I saw on Facebook the other day. To anyone else, it would just be an informative article about a shooting in Marmet, West Virginia. To me, it's an instant heart attack because there's a shooting in Marmet. Why is this? This is because I'm married to a police officer, specifically one who works in Marmet. 
My immediate reaction is "holy shit". I know I can't call because he's on scene and it could compromise his safety. The next reaction is "okay, let's breathe and read the article for more information". I read the article. There's no officers involved. Insert sigh of relief. 
This is my reality. This is my family's reality. This is my husband's every day. 
My husband was a mechanic when we first met. For the first year we were together, it was the career he felt like he was stuck with, even though he was entirely burnt out on it (and the drama attached to where he worked). Almost a year into our re…